1/1/26 marked my very first stream on Twitch! Here’s to starting a new venture from nothing. Up the 3 followers already! Luckily I don’t need to return-by-death to try something new. I think it’ll be an interesting experience to see how far I can get in a year.
Last year I started the YouTube channel, and though getting new subs wasn’t really the main point, I managed to get 34 subscribers which I think is pretty neat. I also think it’s neat that I feel like I know a majority of those subscribers from the various uke places online that I’ve been hanging out in. It’s never about the numbers, but the people behind the screen.
There are two ways to get good: experience and prescience. You can learn by doing, or you can learn by those who came before you. Streaming is definitely a new experience, and I’m revising my thoughts about it rather quickly.
I asked some experienced streamers some questions and they told me to just “do what I love” and said not treat it like a job. Well, I kind of feel like the stuff I love is not necessarily what is going to lead me to my goals. I love playing music and watching anime, and I can indulge in that entirely fine without being on stream. I get where they’re coming from, but I strongly feel that I need to treat this like a job to get what I want out of it. I need to show up consistently, and I need to do things I don’t necessarily enjoy to reach the outcomes I desire.
Art is a conversation, and talking to people who are only interested in talking about themselves gets boring. Being a musician means guiding your audience to feel certain ways. And finding an audience when you have none means showing up with something worth paying attention to. I strongly believe that I need to meet my audience at least half way.
Case and point, I spent a day playing some of my favorite goth and emo songs. I had a great time, but I it really didn’t feel like it was quite right. I’d wager that if I kept grinding at it I might eventually find people who would like this kind of music on ukulele. You can get it if you really want, but you must try, try and try, try and try. Is this what I want to try so hard for?
I don’t think so. My current idea is more about treating streaming as a proxy for busking. But one thing I realized yesterday is that the people who watch streamers actually want to interact with the personalities. It’s not like playing music on a busy sidewalk where people are in transit from point a to b. It’s a conscious decision to watch someone else do something entertaining, with the chance to talk with them.
I’ve been watching other popular Music streaming channels, and I was surprised to see that a large part of the stream is often dedicated to talking. Then during the music parts people like to spam chat with emotes and walls of texts. It’s not really about the music as much as the chance to be seen.
Its a curious thing. I wouldn’t mind participating in that form of culture, but I fear that setting up the back end to make those kinds of things happen will be very difficult given my difficulties with using a computer. In an ideal world, I would find a friend who would be willing to moderate my stream and help me build that back end. Well, first I’d need to build up my chat to be something that needs moderation.
Further, I was approaching streaming as a proxy for gaining experience to become a restaurant musician. You know, the kind that plays music in the background while people eat lunch or dinner. There’s typically not a lot of crowd work involved in that type of thing.
So how do I balance my intentions with the prevailing interests of the platform? I’m not sure. I’m not sure if I want to be a “streamer” as much as I want to be a “musician.” I guess the distinction would be that former connects with the audience through the streaming experience, while the latter connects through music. Its a matter of what skills you hone.
Right now I think streaming as a means to an end. It is a venue that I can perform at as a musician given my current situation. Next month I have a medical thing coming up that will hopefully definitively determine if there’s an operation that might return me to normal, or if I’m just going to be like this for the foreseeable future. If by some miracle I do get better, I’ll get to reset again and try figure out where to go from there.